To be or not to be..

I hear it all the time...
From every direction
Just Be.

Old friends, new friends they all say the same thing
Howcome you cant just be?
I am no drama queen
I do not thrive on creating a scene
So why is it when I can't just be
I hit self destruct
Pathetic

I try but do not succeed
How else am I supposed to act?
I am captain of the positivity team
But
That's irrelvant because I don't feel like its helping
Patience is a virtue and it is a virtue to have patience.

The SD button I so often push as of late...
Has gotta self destruct itself
It must be removed from my options menu

Ahh to just be...
I know how it feels, I've been there
It's calming and serene
In order to just be... I truly believe one must be happy
Or they can't simple just be.

Sometimes a girls mind works far to hard for far to little.
No pain, No gain - However, No BS either
or SD for that matter

I will just be... I just need to find the time when I can allow myself to do so.