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I once heard... "a man who wants nothing is invincible."
Is it possible to live a life and not want?

We have to give for the sake of giving...
To expect nothing in return.
Sometimes I forget that, and wish I hadn't.

When "want" consumes..
Judgement gets clouded.

Triumph; overcoming this challenge from life.

I am on a quest to
acknowldge my capabilities within myself
realize my potential
learn to control the mental and emotional states...

Some have already begun...
Some are waiting in Europe...
And some are seemingly impossible.. but we'll see :)

Good to go Green

Nothing is certain..
There are no guarantees
Luck is complete fiction...a nickname for karma
There is only time and chance.

Family and friends... love..
Life is too short... time is not endless..
one day...we will pass on..

It's the meantime we gotta make the most of..
Not a day goes by that a simple choice can't change your life
Realization and understanding for what is of true value
All of our conquests

It may have been a year ago... the date is irrelevant
I remember it so clearly...
A Beaver night like any other... girl party show down...
It all happened so swiftly... as if foreshadowing the need to wait
Divine Intervention couldn't even explain
two small moments..was all it took to change..

Arriving to drop off destination..
A light is needed...
Nine second delay...
exit as usual.. continue to next destination

Approach intersection.. realizing I'm speeding
{SINCE WHEN DO I STOP N THINK OF COPS??}
From 80 to 65
Quickly approaching my good to go green light...
As the road's white line reaches my plate
I look up just in time to see,
A red bullet that just JUST missed me..

I look to my right as he continued to fly...
Wait, Hold on...REWIND...
DID THAT JUST HAPPEN?!?!?!

My heart stopped... My chest tightened.
I had to stop moving.. if only for a moment..
Thought..wept...thought some more..
Needed to recollect...

I Made a call.

My dear friend, I thank you. Unknowingly you just saved my life..

To describe the sudden awareness...the closeness and potential of our two cars colliding...the fact that it would have been my side at 200 an hour...through his red light...through my good to go green..

Fate, guardian angel, divine intervention... higher purpose...whichever for whatever..
Like a force field, I was protected.. Spared even..
I am forever grateful.

Inspired and aware
life shouldn't be taken for granted.

If it feels wrong.. there's a reason
If it feels right.. there's a reason
Understand things happen for with purpose...
Embrace your choices...we all have them.

Action leads to consequence
Consequence leads to comprehension
Comprehension leads to appreciation.

The 23rd year of my life has brought great change...
I do believe that this event played a role.

Face the inevitable..one day we will all pass..
so let's try to enjoy it while it lasts.
xoxoxo

Window...

One door opens another shuts...
One door shuts another opens...
Tit for tat and excetera.
Imagination, surpressed wishes of reality.
There are no refunds, please come again.

Long Love Lost

The triple "L's"
Breathe through my soul
Day in, day out
I count on you to catch me
lovers quarrel...
the trying..

It almost got serious, it almost ended.

To say I lost you, would mean I had you
We know that's not true

I miss the friend I had
Who understood me
Strong enough to deal
With words I needed
talking, yelling...silence.

Random....daily
Coffee....hourly
Cigarettes...constantly
Conversations....endless...

I wouldn't take back, rewrite or change a thing.

You will always be a part of me...
Your guidance has helped find a true me...
I'll miss
your wisdom
the way you look at me
your voice when you're excited, angry or bragging
you always remain calm in my chaos.

You were my hero once, twice...forever.
I wish you didn't know I could save myself.
Strength is a weakness in itself.

I miss my buddy, not the lover.
We'll never go back...
We will look forward...

When the time came we'd just know.

Two down, one to go....

We're both guilty... of forgetting what we had...
No fingers to point...only new futures to face
and new faces to see...


One love to our memories.

I want to

Watch the warm sunsets at dusk
Appreciate my youth and enjoy it while it lasts
Know when to say yes and when to say no
Understand the true meaning of love and respect
Be trustworthy and genuine
Spend more time with the people I care about
Help those who truly need it
Count on my friends when I'll need them most
Make someone smile at least once a day
Share laughter with those around me
Remember every defining moment
Use my intuition to guide me through life
Learn all I can
Teach all I can
Be all I can, in the army... hahahahaha
{minus the army.. ;) }
PZ

The Mission...

The goal is set - travel
the mission - personal growth
destination - anywhere
accomplices - none...

there's a shift.... someone else shares your goal

destination changes, accomplice changes...
bound to be a wild ride
months pass, no plans... ideas still strong.

how to start, where to start
finance - a hindrance beyond any other..
procrastination sets in..
mission gets cloudy...seeming unattainable
conflict after conflict... we stand scratching our heads
can this still be done?

Fair

there's a spark, a click, a skipped beat... something inside you jumps
you both see it, you both feeeel it
you retract slightly.
things change, moments arrive... face to face you stand
it's a spark, a click...it's the same.
separate worlds, with slight collision
not enough time to know...
frustrated, unprepared, a skipped beat... it's all forgotten
small yet mighty, feeling is all you have..
something inside you jumps
across the world... distance will intervene..
but what if?
curiosity did kill the cat, when he shoulda just kept his mouth shut.
{if life made sense, so would that sentence}
predicting tomorrow.. regretting yesterday.. means, forgetting right now.
life... fair?

stand up or shut up

so it happens like this
i go to do the "homework" and collected they stood on my porch
unexpected, yet completely planned.
Ease, tension, relief/stress and an overwhelming sense of something new
beyond expectations
Slowly, spending time here n there..
What pictures to show..
What to say, how to say it
Eventually it fades and something clicks; its fun!
I wanna do this - be the older sister.
I will do this... Priority number one ;)
{unintentional rhyme but deal}
How we'll come together may not be easy to predict
but,it may just do it for.... itself.
Never been reliable, that's about to change.

Today's the day...

Waking up; no easy task
Couldn't sleep last night... no matter how many sheep flew by
Today's the day I face my past... The past I thought I'd never see
Excited, yes.
Nervous, yes.
Will it run smoothly... I wish I knew.

It's a stange feeling.. Being the only you since forever...

Never realizing you do, say and act because of someone else's genetics coursing through your veins.

What does it mean to be a big sister?

I guess today's the day - I find that out.

Shield is off, heart is full...

Wish me luck

No matter how many times

It never changes... the sun rises and falls...days go by...
months turn into years and before you know it - your 20 something asking yourself where yesterday went.

As each moment passes I cling to grab onto everything around me. It's my downfall - rushing the moments worth cherishing.

Greediness is so easy to feel and so hard to diminish from our lives.

We are all given equal opportunity, yet can always find someone doing better than us... Its all about perception... maybe they have more money but have less heart, etc etc...

Perfect is impossible.

I have been waiting a long time for the things I want most. Constantly finding myself trying to make pieces that don't fit - fit the spaces I've made for the things I want... and it never works out... only breaks the picture I had once seen...

Trick - stop rushing it... Problem - breaking the habit.

I have learned patience is one of the hardest traits a person can develop (no one is born patient) - you may sit there thinking you're patient but I can promise you, it truly boils down to circumstance.

Selfish... why does everyone say we're all out for number one and if that is the case... isn't selfish okay?

Friends come in all shapes, sizes and walks of life.... they all have their purpose... each interaction with another human will always teach you something... yet so few of us embrace the opportunity....

It's scary how close you can feel to a person in one hour of conversation... yet, it only takes seconds to wipe out that same sense of closeness.

Is it our intuition that guides our journey or is it our experiences that build our intuition?

Simply question - impossible answer.No matter how many times these questions and realities present themselves.. they never get easier to answer or deal with.

mental. physical. emotional.

Life's love... we all want it~